Much prayer, much power; little prayer, little power; no prayer, no power. It's said by a faithful Christian after he got saved decades ago when he was 20 years old. Pastor Lutzer was mentioning this during the service today, and all I did hearing this was keeping nodding my head. It is true.

 

I can't believe how much Lord helped me through my life to think something serious which I deared not to think, to tear up the veil that I was hidden behind, to finally have the courage to admit my being unable, to have the full confidence in things I do. No matter what, I AM REDEEMED! I, a girl who thought she can handle every life challenges with perseverance and faith in herself, who sucessfully carried through burdens on her shoulder even with scars left, who thought the nicer she is the harder she works the more she deserves, was finally badly defeated by the presence of the Cross. The moment of her sitting in the church for the first time of her entire life, there was only tears. Later she realized how foolish she was to rely on herself whose strength only comes from an empty heart within. Something that really crushed her down was when she realized that even so much effort was paid to be a "decent nice person", yet she still owe the repentence to Jesus who died for her. Yes, for everyone and, for her. So she repented, she asked for help from God and stopped worshiping herself. Ever since then, there was another hope in her mind that she know she can't make it without God. So she started to pray. And for sure, it was a long journey and a challenged one.

 

But today I want to rejoicefully share that a prayer request that I had since the day I was saved, a prayer that cost me the most desperate tears and cries, the only prayer that I commited to pray for every single day since this year comes true. Lord has been very faithful to my prayer. He answered me exactly the way I asked for, from the very beginning. He searched us and found us, just like the shepherd found his sheep. Yes, here I am, with you sister. We are redeemed! Praise the Lord and He is powerful! Glory be with God! It only gives me more credits to my God, my Savior, my Redeemer!

 

I told Ethan today, Honey, I'm so happy to go to heaven with you. And hey you, you know that I want to meet you in the heaven too! I'm glad we will. Forever, we will be together.